Thursday, January 20, 2011

First ever blog post!

Well hello to the cyber world out there!  I will not fool myself into thinking that anybody is or will ever be reading this.  Why, then, would one write a blog?  Well I can tell you.  Because I simply need to write, get the junk or rambling or important things all off my chest.  My fingers even feel better if I have typed for a while.  I am sure you can understand.

Today is Thursday, January 20th, 2011.  Amelia Mary is 8 months old, getting bigger and faster and more full of personality every day!  This morning, as I was getting ready for work, she was sitting on the floor and playing with her favorite empty popcorn tin.  Who knew babies could be so easy to please?  Ha!  If only it were that easy all the time!

As I write this, I am heavy with sadness knowing that while I may be feeling fine, my father is miles away with his own ailing and dying father.  Grandpa is a great man, but I was not very close to him simply because of the geographical distance.  But my dad is a great man, and I know he picked that up from Grandpa... And I know that things have been hard for them both.  The cancer has spread through Grandpa's lungs, liver and now his brain.  The legions on his brain are causing him to not act himself.  He is lashing out at my Grandma, and is being downright mean to her.  My dad can separate my grandfather from who he is being right now, and can understand that it is the disease talking.  My Grandmother, on the other hand, is having a harder time with that.  And understandably so, really.  They have known each other since they were five years old.  Five years old!  I hardly have any memories from before age 5.  That is an entire lifetime.  This weekend, they will be celebrating their 60th wedding anniversary.  I give them all of my love.

It is sad to me knowing that Ama will not meet my grandfather.  Thankfully, she met grandma this past summer when they were visiting Michigan.  My husband even will never meet grandpa, which is just a shame.  But it is what it is.  He is a good man, and my prayers are with him both for now, and for the journey he is about to take!